Leaning

Today, I am leaning ever so heavily on God.  I feel as though I just may topple over any day, hour, minute, second.  But I know that He has me.  He's got my back.  He's holding me up.  Kind of like this...

His Mighty Hand holding up this fragile tower. 

"Trust in Him at ALL times, O people;

pour out your hearts to Him, for God is our refuge."

Psalm 62:8

Our sermon this morning was about following God.  Asking Him specifically in prayer for what we want/need and then being still and listening to Him.  So this afternoon, God and I had a chat.  I talked. He listened.  I asked Him to open or close the doors before us TODAY.  I told Him that I needed to move on to the next step.  To be able to move forward. 

So after our chat, He did just what I asked Him to do.  He closed the door that we had been looking into.  The door I wanted so badly to be the one we were supposed to go through.  Man it hurt when that door slammed shut. 

So, we had another chat.  I poured my heart out to Him and He patiently listened.  When I was done, He gently told me that He understands how I feel, what I want.  But that I need to trust Him.  

"Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?... "So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' (or Where shall we live?  I added this)  For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." 

Matthew 6:26, 31-33

He's got it all under control.  His plan is perfect.  His timing is perfect.  He knows our needs.  He knows our wants.  He knows.

Praise God that He knows!

He Knows!